you're my guardian dinosaur

Saturday, December 23, 2006

hmm..haha..so it really does make one feel better after pouring out all your woes to a trusted friend.words of comfort are absolutely not redundant.it's good to know that there's people out there willing to listen and share your troubles with you.

i hate that feeling.the one where you feel your heart crumbling and yet there's nothing you can do to make it stop.eeks. will things still be the same?argh!

i must be strong.coz there's always sunshine after rain.

hmm.anyway,i won at mahjong yesterday. (:

RAWRR!!! :E 11:47 AM

Saturday, December 02, 2006

HELLO! ms slacker blogger is back.(:

the highlight is of course leadership training camp!!
tinta,tinta,lionell,lionell!woo~!!
my group sir lionell consists of 11 knights and 3 escorts.
knights:eunice(soccer cap),valerie(class chair),germaine(s.c.),chin ping(netball cap),vanessa(drama pres),lynette(volleyball),mervis(s.c),lincoln(class chair),lewis(cnny deputy director)haha,benjamin(squash cap),jin sheng(kayak qm).
escorts:fawwas(rugby cap),wei jun(s.c),ping qi(s.c)

so sir lionell started out on our journey.high elements on the first day.belaying super fun la.we had the honour of having ms audrey to teach us personally.woo hoo~!! i'll nvr forget those belaying commands.the trust tt we have and laid in our teammates hands.it's beyond what words can convey.1st day already marks a good strat for sir lionell journey.hmm.let's carry on our story. from those little ice-breakers stations..i see the glowing light from everyone..the potential in sir lionell.(:
so..we tried zip line(flying fox) and abseiling in the rain.cool.taking the step off the platform of flying fox really requires a great deal of courage.i took a few seconds and i jumped off.so..tt's how its feels like when committing suicide.haha.abseiling also.the first step is always the hardest.to lean back into the air.wow.haha.i can still feel my heart pounding.plus.there's freaking lot of mosquitoes there.and one stung the bottom of my eye.at the cheek there.sick!!

with barely enough sleep,less than 5 hours,we began on our day 2 adventure.morning w high element again.jin sheng and i conquered vertical challenge.the scenary on the top made all the sweat and algae i got onto my shirt worthwhile.my butt hurts.like it was hammered.ouch.the harness is killing me.i'll nvr forget the view when we got on top.memorable.then we went on to rock climbing.haha.no kick.maybe it's becoz it's indoor.should have tried the outdoor one.more challenging.too bad it's faulty.): after tt we went for urban quest after being forced to drink 7 bottles of 1.5l water.i almost burst my bladder on the bus.omg.our faces on the bus were damn funny.haha.urban quest was quite dumb.keep taking buses.lame.haha.the outdoor cooking part was fun nonetheless.(: jin sheng,our dear scout,set a strong fire quickly.bravo!!i cooked the baked beans w eggs.super yummy!!hiak.and our cupcorn rocks big time.haha.then pitching of tents.bathing w our shirts on.hees.fond memories.laughing and chatting across tents while everyone else is asleep.hmm.lionell spirit.ya.not to forget night quest.a big success.very fun and meaningful.though i partnered w someone from another group.(: jia jian from robotics.great partner.(: the grass was so much more comfortable than our bunks in jln bahtera.(:

third day--not enough sleep again!! rafting and kayak school.very fun.lionell managed to build the best raft of all.of coz w the help of our dear scout,jin sheng and dear guides,vanessa.but the rest of us helped out too.(: capsize drill was not as scary as i thought.instead it was very very fun!!though the sea water kind of salty.haha.

day 4--kayaking and then finale night.hmm.felt sad and a little emo.i dont want the camp to end so fast.our skit was a huge success too!! hoorays lionell!! and pallenol(not sure of the spelling).but yep.many said tt our skit is the best.(:

met up w fellow lionell mates yesterday for supper.yummy.i'm so happy.all turned up except for those tt went overseas.we bonded more than i expected.2 more meetings lined up.envy me ppl.hees.i feel so fortunate.(:

hmm.some reflections...perhaps some things are not meant to be.i know and i have already let go.it's tiring to cling onto things that are already fading/gone.i feel happier now.although i still feel a little jealous or whatsoever when i see pictures of you all,but i dont feel that we're lacking of each other.you dont need me,i dont need you.simple.those smile,what exectly lies behind them?sincerity or hypocritiness?i'm not interested in finding out.fullstop.(:

RAWRR!!! :E 10:55 PM