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Monday, January 11, 2010

talk about bridging the gap. can someone tell me how to fill up 5 yrs worth of gap? and with what? htht? our common activities? i think i know the answer....just move on...
不知道是不是自己老了，最近总无缘无故地觉得伤感。虽然已懂得如何点算自己的快乐多于悲哀，豁达地面对挫折，但总觉得还是少了些什么，自己也说不上来。有时候听到一首歌，或嗅吸到那熟悉的味道（香水，洗发精等），脑里一阵急流，把我冲回到从前的那一天。除了我们伟大的大脑，音乐和味道也是封锁记忆的开关，一触即发。不知道是不是只有我才那么觉得。。哈哈！！放不下的悔恨将成为我们的绊脚石。释怀的包袱将蜕变成带我们展翅高飞的翅膀。我不想再被绊倒了！！！我要飞！！！最近的内心独白越来越频繁，自己都觉得有一点害怕，但却找不到根本。我到底是怎么了？？！！或许是我自己给自己太多压力了吧。。。

on a brighter note, i had a FUNtastic weekend well spent with my family. daddy,mummy,me,ben,sis,bro and gf went to pulau ubin tgth!!! it's the first time for me and mummy!!! X: yes i'm mountain tortoise...hahaha!!! had dim sum at changi village before taking bumboat to ubin. :D rented bicycles and the 7 of us cycled to the marina resort for a break. went along the coastline and saw lots of hermit crabs, mini-mussels (mini as in really small, like a grain of rice) and brave daddy caught a small crab (like a bit smaller than my palm) but he was injured by the crab's pincer. ): but we 大发慈悲 let the crabs go free in the end...): they were really nice to look at!!! (: it was so cute when the 7 of us were exploring the coastline and being fascinated by those small little creatures. <3 <3 <3 not to forget seeing mum and dad cycling so hard and sweating so much. bet they couldnt even remember when was the last time they exercised!!! Heeeheee...love how we look out for one another when we were cycling...so heartwarming!! :D then we went fishing. my virgin fishing experience!! big bro's excitement were were super shortlived. it only took him less than 3 mins from the time he threw the bait into the pond to him catching the golden snapper. hahaha!!! i was second in place. took abit more than 10 mins to catch a golden travelli. then it was dad's turn to hooked up the biggest catch of the day, mr red snapper. lastly sis ended our fishing adventure with a milk fish. hehe. poor ben,mum and yvonne 吃鸡蛋！！hahaha!! packed the fishes and mum and dad left home first to prepare the fish before going to work, while the 5 of us continued on our pulau ubin adventure. cycled round to chek jawa. hate the inclined slopes to the max!!! sooo tiring!! ): but it was rewarding when we got to the top of the viewing tower and had our mini-picnic there. bet those bangalas and ang-mohs were super jealous of us!! :D then went onto the trails and saw my favourite mud-skipper!! debated if it was edible and whether it would taste like fish or mud. hehehe. left the island at close to 6pm. had red dates jelly with longans at changi village(sis's recommendation). not bad,at least something different from the normal desserts outside. then feasted on the cockles. it was super sinful. i hope i dun get hepatitis B for that. hahaha. the sambal chilli is heaven!!! i started craving for it once i finished my last piece. BOO HOO HOO!!! ))):

secretly feel blessed to have my big bro as my bro.hehe.he is superb i tell you.not only is he smart and handsome(ok maybe not to all, but is charismatic k), he also has the brains(lawyer,duh?),顾家,got foresight etc etc....of all the qualities, i admire him most for his efforts to bond the family and helps the family out. seriously how many guys in our era are like him? i bet there wont be more than a dozen. he never makes dad or mum pay during our family outings and he takes care of all our insurance policies, making sure that we get the best protection. despite all these, he can be quite a joker at times. secretly peeping at my sis and bro's sms out of k-po'ness and gossiping about my siblings together with me. this silly bro of mine always likes to confide in me whenever he's feeling troubled. must be the affinity between the oldest and youngest child. hahaha. if i am granted a choice, i would not hesitate even for a split second to choose him as my big bro in my next lifetime!!! hehehe!!! <3

signing off feeling bloated with happiness~~~ ((: <3

RAWRR!!! :E 5:13 PM