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Monday, October 18, 2010

just read my friend's blog,she a teacher. then it dawned on me that i am lucky to have not gotten into NIE....because if i did, it would be the start of a crying journey for the rest of my teaching career. personally, i am the sort who gets emotionally attached easily,super easily. i can cry over song lyrics/tune,commercials,short videos,movies and of course drama series. i even get withdrawal symptoms when i finished watching some dramas. heart felt so lost and empty. )): perhaps my tear glands are overly active,but i have to clarify that i am not the emo sort of person,i just get moved easily. i was just imagining, if i became a teacher,every year when my students graduate, i would definitely cry my eyes out,just like i did when i graduated from secondary. thinking back, its strange that i only cried when i graduated from secondary school...but not primary school and jc. maybe i was too young to feel the sadness when i was 12 and was too numbed by jc hell-like curriculum and sucky teachers to feel any sense of belonging to jc when i was 18.

i've always loved and adored small kids. but on second thoughts, seeing and interacting with young kids once in awhile maybe a joy but having to face them everyday may be a different story altogether. what if i grew to find them a hassle as the days goes by? if that is so, what will happen when i have kids in the future? will i have that kind of patience to nuture them?

life sucks when you have so many doubts about it and when you have a lazy piece of shit as your colleague.sometimes i really want to scream in her face and ask her to stop acting dumb and to pick up the bloody calls in office!!! O:<

RAWRR!!! :E 4:05 PM

haven been blogging for a long time. life hasn't been very exciting.

this morning my mum told me to keep an eye on my 3 elder siblings while she and dad goes to m'sia for the next few days:

1.to make sure that my sister dont stay out till late
2.to monitor my 2 brothers and make sure they don't play computer games till late in the night coz they need to work the next morning.

my response to her was "please don't ask the youngest child in the family to keep an eye and look after the other 3 older ones at home hor...." and she gave me the -___- look..LOL..

speaking of which, i really think i'm the one that my parents worry about the least.not that they care lesser, but i seem to be taking care of myself better than my siblings.

though i earn much lesser than my brothers, but they always make my mum worry.
for big bro,she'll always fret over his relationship problems.
for 2nd bro,she'll always fret over his night shifts n long working hours taking a toil on his health.
for sis,she'll fret over her job hunt and relationship problems.

俗话说：“养儿一百岁，长忧九十九。”真的应验在我妈妈身上。世上只有妈妈好~~！！((:

for me,my relationship has never been a cause of worry for my mum coz she has never seen me quarrelling with ben before,neither did i.haha. for my studies,hmm...am lucky to say that i have been scoring distinctions and just a few marks short of high distinctions for past few modules. and even though i work and study, i take good care of my health and i'm am a healthy sleeper. i seldom stay up late and will always plop onto my bed once i feel tired. i make an effort to exercise regularly and eat proper meals.

i seemed to have forgotten what else i wanna blog about. never mind,next time then.((:

RAWRR!!! :E 11:16 AM